SHAN's brightest secrets

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2010-08-07T03:43:00.002+08:00

5 August : 38.7, throat's rebel, world spinning, no strength, no nothing.

6 August: alive & kicking, stronger than before (:

if you saw the previous post, happy for you, sad for me.

I'm happy today. Only when you're a damsel in distress you'll see who is really there for you. fair enough. (:

p/s: cooling pad works wonders.

2010-05-23T23:56:00.001+08:00

how much more could I carry before it all overflows?

TP 23rd

2010-04-22T23:32:00.000+08:00

terrified.

i just wanna be a happy girl tomorrow.

):

2010-04-13T00:46:00.002+08:00

it has been a long time since I really feel like bidding goodbye to the whole world.

can someone just....... spare me a place to hide?

thoughts

2010-02-19T02:02:00.002+08:00

I almost got knocked down yesterday evening.

if i was alone and i continued walking.

if the vehicle was just this bit faster.

if nobody stopped me.

if i had walked faster, just this one more step.

if just one of this 'if's happened..

they say when you're near death experience alot of images will appear in your head.

why didn't I have them?

perhaps it was not that close yet?

but then again, if that wasn't close enough, I don't know what that was.

flower

2010-02-13T00:38:00.003+08:00

sunflower or bluerose.

bubbletea crave, mad craving. ):

happy CNY eve to all, happy CNY in advance.

enjoy and HUAT UH!!!!!!!! :D

immature

2010-01-23T01:23:00.001+08:00

the duration of you and your guy best/close friend's friendship ends the
moment their dreamgirl appears.
-shan

been a long time since i blogged, not that long, but long enough for my accidental bangs to grow to an acceptable length.
not very used to the fact that its 2010 already. everything seems to drift at some lightning speed.
poly's orientation seems like yesterday.
so yesterday, almost 2 years apart already.
im still so immature, still unsure of what i want in the near future, still insecure of things.
seriously, i wish i can master the disappearing act.
i need a drink, badly.

pain

2010-01-05T23:08:00.000+08:00

whenever i have dizzy spells or migraine, i'll feel damn terrified.

i'll be thinking whether it's time that i'm leaving everyone already, or it's a sign that i'm leaving this place soon?

not wanting anyone to know how uncomfortable i feel, neither do i want to visit the doc.

no, not stubborn.

if one day i am not around anymore, please remember i cant bear to leave either.

haha, don't take the above sentence seriously.

no worries, i'm fine, and will be fine.

the fear is growing, i could hardly breathe for a period of time earlier on.

2010

2010-01-01T22:42:00.002+08:00

happy 2010 (: ♥♥♥

let bygones be bygones.

just like projects, leave it in 2009 and dont bring it over LOL.

this song is the new drug.

♥ 羅志祥羅志祥羅志祥羅志祥羅志祥 !

f

2009-12-23T03:48:00.000+08:00

just as

2009-12-19T20:32:00.000+08:00

just as i was beginning to trust.

stupid day

2009-12-11T10:36:00.002+08:00

highly suspecting about what special ability i possess when im aslp.

my phone was on my desk when i was aslp, next to me when i woke up this morning.

still immune to alarm clock, horrible.

was still planning to have breakfast before i slowly dragged my feet to school today. surprisingly the first sentence that greeted me today was "I thought your lesson was at 10?" -.-

why am i so muddle-headed nowadays? i left my book on the table, left home, went back to retrieve it, realised the disappearance of my book again, went to my 'car-boot' to retrieve it. -.-

stupidity kills.

.

2009-12-09T23:10:00.002+08:00

the feeling is terrible.

finally, i believe that kind of torment that Bella went through during those nights in New Moon were possible.

i always thought that those shows were stupid;

when those people cried while watching comedy/variety shows on tv.

ridiculous, i dont even know what im going through.

best thing is, i dont even know what im typing.

happy girl

2009-12-07T21:48:00.003+08:00

shan's a happy girl today ♥ ~

(:

tan ah lene ! you better get well soon soon asap! ♥

i wanna bitch around and go shopping with you luh ! ♥♥

♥~

devastated.

2009-11-25T22:35:00.003+08:00

cant comphrehend
cant breathe
cant summon the strength needed to hold on anymore.

cant even pick myself up
cant even whine
cant even cry

whats hurting so much?

so much for indifference.

i might not be as important, but is there this once that ppl care? at least when im already feeling damn stranded?

i just need a place to hide, from everything.
and from everyone.

just go away.

for ivy

2009-11-22T23:08:00.003+08:00

this is specially for dearest bytch, Ivy Goh Yaoyao! ♥ ♥ ♥

GRATS FOR GETTING CROWNED AS THE RACE QUEEN!

damn proud of you luh ♥

p/s: notice your name is highlighted using your favourite colour?

btw, you're welcome LOL.

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

too much to bear

2009-11-22T11:40:00.002+08:00

messed up

mixed emotions

wondering

pondering

whats right

whats wrong

whats there

whats not

was it because of the burden?

or was it not.

the weight that couldn't be lift upon?

or was it meant to be there forever?

no, i dont trust forever.

such irony.

pilling up

overwhelming

since when?

when nothing seems to be right

when your shoulder feels so heavy

when emotions are filled with agony

when it hurts too much to scream for help

too much to bear.

end

2009-11-15T02:06:00.002+08:00

im needing some remedy.

on a side note,

proud of myself. (:

finally.

question

2009-11-01T23:02:00.000+08:00

been MIA here for way too long. worse, without the update of pictures even though i promised myself to do it.

anyway, ahblur asked me to blog! haha!

someone pulled out this topic and it occurred to me that different people has answer that varies to this question.

Do you believe in boy-girl bestfriendship?

my answer was a definite yes. people around me knows that ive got this bestest best guy friend whom ive known like 9years and still counting. (:

furthermore, perhaps because my character is more towards the guy-side, i figured sometimes i could click with guys better than girls. yes, not more than friends.

hence, the one who questioned me this amazed me with his answer; the exact opposite of mine.

lost the feel to blog already, do tell me your stand if you happened to chance upon this. (:

oh well

2009-10-11T02:57:00.003+08:00

they ask

"why you every week got friend's bdae one?"

they ask

"are you Singaporean?"

they ask

"why you never smile?"

sometimes i wonder why am i obliged to answer all this questions on like daily basis.

p/s: anything but eeyores.

workaholic

2009-10-09T02:02:00.001+08:00

the thought of school reopening makes me dreaded doing things.

im terrified, seriously.

that annoyed feeling is back.

): the worse hols ever, since when did i unknowingly became a workaholic? gee.

and all the dizzy spells.

ym's bdae

2009-10-08T02:02:00.001+08:00

holidays were meant to be happy, so were birthdays and beauty sleep.

whats wrong with me?

perhaps im not made for entertaining people.

p/s: happiest birthday dearest yingming! (:

missed the times that we always had htht before we started drifting away because of studies and all.

appreciate that you're still here for me whenever i need htht ♥

enjoy your birthday hokay! will always be here if you need me (:
(though your prince in white already appeared HAHA!)

LOVE YOU! =D

.randomia

2009-09-29T23:52:00.002+08:00

sensed a very busy week ahead.

mahjong crave.

blue roses are gorgeous.

p/s: happy 21st birthday to ahmei and buta =D

hth talk (:

2009-09-27T02:55:00.008+08:00

this month seems to be a hth talk month.
thanks for all the concern you all showered me with.

ignorance may be a bliss, not knowing isn't.

though some things you'll never get to know, even till your death bed.

tan ah lene, make your appearance or ill haunt you in your house.
yes, this is an SOS alert.

wonders

2009-09-19T02:24:00.007+08:00

and she wonders how does it feel to be someone's priority.

anyone's.

traumatized

2009-09-12T01:05:00.003+08:00

traumatized, felt so helpless till i felt like crying at that moment.

luckily pris they all were there.

2 more days in hell.

love, or be loved?

2009-09-10T08:07:00.003+08:00

would you rather choose..

to L O V E,

or to BE L O V E D?

p/s: happy 24th birthday ahhui (:

balloon

2009-09-06T23:56:00.003+08:00

been awake for god knows how many hours already.

sinful, bad for complexion.

missing that flower-shaped balloon that i liked so much.

retrieval is near impossible, afterall, the balloon is not the only thing i disposed earlier on.

sleep is all i need atm.

MAN U

2009-08-30T02:39:00.002+08:00

♥ Red Devils.
♥ Rooney & Park
♥ MAN U!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

exciting match, love it. ridiculous own goal HAHAHA. Park owns, srly LOL.

never gave up, and never WILL give up on MAN U. ♥ ♥ ♥

perhaps it is still the same. thought we were out of that circle, didnt realised its only because we went into a larger one.

and i still hate feeling unimportant.

(:

2009-08-28T23:38:00.002+08:00

♥ bytches.
♥ sbff
♥ The Proposal (seriously its nice, should catch this.)
♥ spotting my bff coincidentally ! LIKE AFTER SO LONG!
♥ those small small things that make my day (:

networking seems quite bad.

as bad as my rubbish sleeping hours

not to mention my super super super regular meals

aja aja fwighing. just that lil bit more
♥

dont like walking home alone, sets me thinking alot.

):

2009-08-27T18:52:00.000+08:00

tedious.

giving up seems very tempting.

but i know tts not an option.

i will be happy again, soon.

p/s: get well soon ivy bytch. (:

♥ classmates

2009-08-24T03:30:00.005+08:00

lessy damn sweet luh. she flooded me this in msn with 'i love shanny' in the middle of those hearts! too bad i failed to ss ):

baluku's apology email. HAHA!

neeway, happy belated birthday to kaiying bytch ♥
shall update her bdae celebration in another post !

blissful girl with lovely classmates ! ♥ ♥ ♥

gorgeous babes ♥

hui and nor's attempt to dsiao nqx LOL.

♥ ♥
motivation for school. (:

arcade inspired. LOL. she damn adorable can! HAHA.

Gatsby inspired. LOL.

all in all, ♥ you all much much (:

simplicity is bliss, something im trying hard to seek for now.

i ought to be contented, so i wouldnt ask for anything more.

maybe i'd choose to stay like this,

until im convinced of otherwise.

bliss

2009-08-21T12:27:00.001+08:00

no picnic later ):

but still damn anticipating to meet my bytches ! ♥

blissful to max!

2009-08-20T12:36:00.001+08:00

and im craving for maggie mee -.-

starving, and feeling unimportant.

.

2009-08-18T00:13:00.002+08:00

and there's no one around to lend you this helping hand.

2009-08-17T23:17:00.001+08:00

can i just disappear for a while?

not greedy, just a short little while.

my disappearance wouldnt be noticed, im definite about that.

life can be so vulnerable, sincerely pray for the damages to be at its miminum.

pics

2009-08-15T00:25:00.004+08:00

*DRUMS ROLL..........................

the anticipated start of the reminiscing..

featuring...

"BALALA IN PYJAMAS!"

they were supposed to pose like b1 and b2.

bonus of the day..

GALEX! =D

or ly's GELAX.

to be continued..........

p/s: spot the diff: the image from the camera and galex's current expression at that point of time.

insomnia

2009-08-14T04:27:00.002+08:00

when insomnia strikes, my world stops without a warning.

im hoping ****'s crush recovers soon.

oh, im starting afresh, i reckon i had been kind of _______(please fill in the blank)

p/s: i ♥♥♥ mahjong.
p/p/s: happy birthday peeping tom ♥

by lene

2009-08-07T03:21:00.000+08:00

bff: guys dont realise that most of the time when they started giving up is the time girls started to consider.

p/s: insomnia is wicked.

p/p/s: G.I.JOE is AWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEESOME! =D

nb

2009-08-05T22:57:00.001+08:00

why is there this trend of guys gossiping and behaving like some i-have-nothing-else-better-to-do-so-i-gossip-and-i-wanna-gossip-till-i-die-retards?!

MOFO, you can gossip all you want till your lips swell like two colling sausages.

BUT,

get your facts right before you start all your assumptions and accusations.
furthermore i do not (AT ALL) think that this has anything to do with you.

YES, YOU MOFO.

MYOB and go away. stop acting like you're involved, wait, do you even know me?

ARGH.

ironic world

2009-08-05T01:25:00.001+08:00

sometimes, i hope for straightforwardness.
almost always, there's only two choices available for selection.

whats the tough part?

but then again, this world will be too predictable.

how ironic.

p/s: grats 110000000000000 years friend.
we went through the same plight, but you survived.
just as how i thought you would,
with a happy ending as bonus. (:

to ahblur.

2009-08-01T00:00:00.002+08:00

happy happy happy birthday ahblur! ♥

i know you frequent my blog, so definitely you will see this post later.

since eewen, then sasa, then you went NS, then eewen and i nagged you till the time you finally ended NS, and halfway you went Taiwan for NS and we nagged you for presents, till etc.

3 years passed by just like that ._.
from stranger, to people i barely know, till now. (:

all in all, happy birthday to a very important person in my life. (:

shaun's bdae

2009-07-31T10:51:00.000+08:00

its amazing how people feels exactly the same on certain things.

happy birthday shaun! (who phoned me randomly last week to tell me "just to tell you next friday is my birthday) -.-

very slp deprived.

2009-07-29T00:14:00.002+08:00

seriously, i feel retarded when i go all the way to do things that benefits ppl, then feel unappreciated.

being sleep deprived, stressing over project, spending a long day doing things that i dont like, then completed the pleasant day with the visit of flu. how nice.

thanks for being so inconsiderate, learnt another lesson. (:

struggling

2009-07-26T04:15:00.000+08:00

everyone is struggling with the upcoming projects assessments and coming tests/exams. sigh.

workload seems so overwhelming,
yet no one can do anything to cease it.

worse still, shit happens.

i think i can attain the secret to angels/god/eternity/blah soon.
i totally forgot to have my breakfast/lunch/dinner today -.-
(not deliberately for losing weight hokay, i know tt doesnt save me from being fat)

happy belated birthday secret ♥

p/s: cheer up timo, please dont give up on yourself.

p/p/s: i miss my bestie, bff, snow ice, fireworks and home-cooked fried rice ):

p/p/p/s: mahjong rocks my socks, but i srly need to tune my weekends body clock.

dilemma

2009-07-21T00:41:00.002+08:00

dilemma.

pissed

2009-07-18T02:41:00.002+08:00

im seriously damn pissed.

whoever you are, tt was seriously an immature act.

and im not gg to let this matter go like this. (:

):

2009-07-15T00:26:00.002+08:00

and she's a girl who is fat and hot-tempered.

why are there endless assignments to do?
does the circle goes on and on and on till we grow old and die?

and im hating all the heavy usage of codings.

i cant even have 5 hours of sleep, how nice.

p/s: the world is uber small. smaller than what i imagined.

p/p/s: we ~~are~~ WERE close friends. (:

i wish i can cheer myself up. ):

fat me

2009-07-10T01:03:00.002+08:00

lucky me, got stucked in the MRT for like 15 mins after already waiting for like 15 mins initially for the train.

im feeling very annoyed; source unknown.

the feeling is killing me.

yes, im fat.
uber fat.
fat to the ultimate.
and im growing plump.
blah.
blah.
blah.

thanks uh.

bubble tea

2009-07-08T23:55:00.000+08:00

this pic looks uber tempting. anyone knows where they sell this?

ive been craving for bubble tea THAT MUCH that im so going to love anyone who offers me one tmr. LOL.

i ♥ ♥ ♥ my mamo. (:

b1's artwork

2009-07-07T00:42:00.004+08:00

B1's artwork HAHA.

spotted B1 today before he spotted me (TTS LIKE FIRST TIME EVER).

waited for 3590813048194214210385 years but to no avail.

gave up, dug out my phone and phoned.

funniest thing is what he told me about his classmates who was with him! HAHA!

p/s: i accidentally found out hui has this secret lil crush on our classmate! he has this SIMS character which looked EXACTLY like the person! no joke!

p/p/s: lessy and i bathed tgt ystd.

sasa's bdae.

2009-07-05T01:46:00.006+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SASA! ♥ ((:

bff pasted me this and i find it uber cute & meaningful. read (:

Dear IT Support,

Last year I upgraded from Boyfriend 5.0 to Husband 1.0
and noticed a slow down in the overall performance,
particularly in the flower, gifts and jewellery applications that had operated flawlessly under
Boyfriend 5.0

In addition, Husband 1.0 un-installed many other valuable programs,
such as Romance 9.5 and Personal Attention 6..5
but installed undes ira ble programs such as For
Formula One 5.0, NBA 3.0 and World Cup 2.0.
And now Conversation 8.0 no longer runs and House Cleaning 2.6 simply crashes the system.

I've tried running Nagging 5.3 to fix these problems, but to no avail.
What can I do?

Signed,
Desperate Housewife

Reply:

Dear Desperate Housewife,

First keep in mind:
Boyfriend 5.0 is an entertainment package,
while Husband 1.0 is an operating system.

Try entering the command C:\ I THOUGHT YOU LOVED ME
and download Tears 6.2 to install Guilt 3.0 ..
If all works as designed,
Husband 1.0 should then automatically run the applications Jewellery 2.0 and Flowers 3.5.

But remember,
overuse can cause Husband 1.0 to default to Grumpy Silence 2.5, Happy Hour 7.0 or Late Night Teh Tarik 6.1.
Late Night 6.1 is a very bad program that will create SnoringLoudly.wav files.

Whatever you do,
DO NOT install Mother-in-Law 1.0 or reinstall another Boyfriend program.
These are not supported applications and will crash Husband 1.0.
In summary, Husband 1.0 is a great program,
but it does have a limited memory and cannot learn new applications quickly.

You might consider additional software to improve memory and performance.
I personally recommend Hot Sexy Dress 3.0 and Tonat Ali 6.9.

Good Luck,
IT Support

.__.

2009-07-04T03:58:00.000+08:00

its near 4am but i feel damn awake.

feels like i slept for veh long ady, which is obviously entirely opposite.

uberrrrrrrrr stressed up. .__.

can anyone replace me? ):

2009-07-03T02:10:00.000+08:00

sometimes i feel stupid.

overslept. missed the meeting time for surprise. paramount hotel.

sch's reopening soon, and that suck.
being slp deprived makes the whole matter worse.

heavy workload, feels like i will stop breathing anytime.

guess that explains my moodswings and that repeated annoyed feeling that im unable to get rid of this two days.

icecream puff is ♥

and i still have the craving for bubbletea ):

that feeling still lingers.

happy birthday shinpei (:

2009-07-02T04:10:00.001+08:00

how come i didnt notice there are alot of june and july babies? -.-

anw, happy belated birthday to yuting, xinyi, claudia, sok, eve and whoever i missed out.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PEISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS. =D

hope you complete your Arashi collection soon! (:

anw, im still feeling sleep deprived from sok and 38's birthday bash. till now i only had like 5 hours of sleep.

i wanted to sleep early today, and its REALLY early now. -.-

im getting feedbacks that i looked damn shag, tts horrid. =OO

tmr will be better, right? .___.

changes

2009-06-27T03:24:00.005+08:00

everything is so different.

reminisce.

just because we cant stop changes,
we're forced to adapt to it.
adapters wins,
stubborness loses.

brobro got N97.
so envy, though tt phone is not in my league.

need to do something about it cause i feel heartache.
cant let it stay this way.

reminder: call shitty tic office.
38 and sok's bdae party.

RIP, Michael Jackson.
you'll forever be the legend,
the idol of idols. ♥

p/s: secret abandoned me.

p/p/s: mahjong, kbox, and transformers.

p/p/p/s: i want a robot boyfriend. ♥ ♥ ♥

thoughts.

2009-06-26T01:52:00.000+08:00

slp deprived; still surviving on my pathetic 4 hours of sleep.

"I love you, man" is a fab show, recommended. (:

not shouting pain doesnt mean it doesnt hurt.
just because you didnt want symphathy,
just because you didnt want to appear weak,
just because you didnt want people to worry,
just because you didnt want to show it,
just because you wanna put up a strong front,
just because you know it doesnt matter to anyone,

simply not a tiny bit equivalent to "it doesnt hurt".

say two person are both suffering from the same level of injury.

does it mean that the person who whine and whine hurts more than the other who doesnt even let out a twitch?

level of tolerance, i'll say.

why hang on to someone that dont belong?
because you're too used to its presence, or because you just dont want to lose a dog that is to your beck and call? (:

admit it, you're only concern about your own welfare.

sBFF

2009-06-25T01:07:00.003+08:00

introducing.....

MY SECRET BFF.

my bff so cute (:

anw, finally one wish of mine came true.

like Z-O-M-G wishes DO come true ya?

hols are extended for another freaking week!
though it may be a con in disguise, but still....

oh well.

p/s: see this. b1 pasted me. amazing.

http://abcnews.go.com/2020/Health/Story?id=7880954&page=1

things that i try so hard to forget,
you twisted it over without even using a muscle.
how great, now its back to square one.

pc show'o9

2009-06-23T22:59:00.003+08:00

this post is actually for ahblur who stalked me ystd night LOL.

anw, whats stopping me from blogging for like a month is because im just too reluctant(or lazy) to upload pictures.

but that resulted in a WHOLE LOT of overdue pictures,

and all those events for the entire period of time. HAHA!

okay, cutting it short, words shall be left for another post.

PC SHOW 2009!

mindy, the birthday girl. bdae spent on work sio. .___.

girls and kelly! kelly so super slim lo! haha.

anyway, this fair i only went during weekends. thus, dont have alot of visuals ):

of course i didnt just take two pictures luh! the rest will be uploaded......tmr? HAHA.

comments on the new skin? (:

anw, a big thankyou if you're still reading my blog hokay.

will be updating more often from now onwards.

p/s: happy birthday gavin! (:

it've been one year, exactly.

wake up, srly.

2009-05-14T08:34:00.003+08:00

my body should stop rejecting school.

my lesson is at 8.

and im at home now.

what happened?

p/s: pls slap me if i never update pics next post.

after sunday is tuesday.

2009-05-10T22:12:00.004+08:00

my blog is full of words -.-

pls remind me to upload photos here before they clog up my memory space.

seriously, dont tell me tmr is monday. unless you're going to go through my schedule with me.

JASON GOH. STOP LAUGHING AT MY BLACK HAIR.
dont so bastard can?

someday, somebody will know how to appreciate my black hair!
pffffffft.

i love bestie.

2009-05-09T20:44:00.002+08:00

met bestie.

had dinner,
talked alot.

something happened which made both of us so agitated until i had to drag her outside to the entrance there. -.-

bestie,
silly, im not angry with you,
i know you dont mean it that way.

those that you said were for my own good, i understand that.
perhaps you were right,
but if i say promise, i really mean promise kay (:

i love love you too! *hugs

actually, have alot to say to you.
but i dont know why whenever i express my gratitude to someone in my blog,
the outcome is always very unexpected.

cursed, better not attempt. (:

a way to end lesson early.

2009-05-09T20:05:00.003+08:00

the best way to make your lesson end early: whine.

LOL.

lesson ended early ystd because we really couldnt concentrate.

no idea why actually, probably because majority of us were extremely hungry LOL.

i discovered that eleanor EATS human! HAHAHA.

and eileen wanted to abandon 1 hour of attendance! LOL.

so 3 of us whine and grumbled and persuade till bala said something like this to me:

"if i let you all go for dinner now, you'll be treating me to dinner tgt?"

i hesitated for a few secs, while trying to make out his words.

"ahhhhh. anything anything! can go already right?"

and the three of us were like busy packing up LOL.

funny thing was, we actually succeeded LOL.

his last sentence were "so where are we meeting later?"

unexpected.

"uhhhhhhhhhh. KOUFU!" , i replied while rushing out of the classroom. HAHA.

confidential

2009-05-06T19:41:00.007+08:00

im suspecting that im not from planet earth.

maybe there was this once upon a time,
i did something offensive on my own planet.

maybe i slapped the president of the planet accidentally (more prone to deliberately).

or probably i eloped with the prince of the planet, wanting to flee to just any other planet, and we lost each other on the way.

or perhaps i just tripped and fall from my own planet,
and TA-DA, appeared in planet earth.

p/s: if you happen to be my mate from that faraway land, contact me, (try to do it privately cause its kind of confidential) and we'll figure out a way to get back tgt (:

p/p/s: ng qing xiang is elated cause MAN U won Arsenal and got qualified to the finals! he said he is cocksure that MAN U will be the overall champion!

p/p/p/s: if strepsils work,
(supposingly it has to, right?)

why am i taking the 5th tablet of it and feeling worse than before?!?!?!

a not-so-emo post.

2009-05-03T21:25:00.003+08:00

IM SO EXCITED ABOUT SCHOOL.

12PM-930PM!

WOHOOO.

SO SO SO SO SO LOOKING FORWARD TO NIGHT CLASS.

SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO ELATED ABOUT THE ONE AND ONLY 40 MINS BREAK IN BETWEEN.

SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO DELIGHTED TO KNOW THAT I'LL REACH HOME AT LIKE 11++?

=DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

p/s: jubilant, because finally they have tables and chairs for my CS module.

duedate's up.

monday blues. i feel sick.

2009-04-27T22:43:00.003+08:00

had a terrible day.

had alot of negative thoughts.

spent last night thinking of alot of things.

dont really know whether my decision was right or wrong,

but decided to just give it a shot.

having headache again, like usual.

suprisingly, i survived monday.

thanks timothy, your offer made me felt the warmth that ive never felt for ages.

thanks bestest, you made me feel loved, that i was important. (: you're always there when i was about to break down.

appreciate, seriously. (:

going nuts soon, srly.

2009-04-26T17:52:00.003+08:00

i need a place to whine.

my bottled emotions are about to explode soon.

p/s: my toe nail broke ):
my laptop reformatted halfway and i know nuts about how to fix it.

i wish dad would drive me home from sch every monday.
wishes never come true, though.

unable to fathom.

2009-04-26T00:15:00.004+08:00

ive decided.

im taking lene's advice.

enough of the difference as though temperature of taiwan and singapore.

p/s: thanks for the omission, felt so loved.

monday, please dont come.

srly, give me a break.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

2009-04-19T23:40:00.003+08:00

sch reopen resolution:

1: blend in to the background.

2: study and concentrate on being a nerd.

3: dont make any new friends, at all.

p/s: I REALLY HATE ANTS. TERRIFIED & HATRED MIXED OF EMOTIONS TILL I CANT FIND ANY WORDS TO EXPLAIN.

I WANNA HIRE A ANTS EXTERMINATOR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

tired, really.

2009-04-19T03:15:00.002+08:00

till now i still dont apprehend the reason why people tend to drift apart from me at one sudden point of time.

im perplexed, terribly seriously perplexed.

its the 3952608314831601384103th time this happened.

give me a reason at least, before you pronounce me dead.

tired of getting used to some's presence, then they disappear somehow.

if the outcome is always like this, i guess im not making friends anymore.

p/s: i may close down my blog, cause i dont find it essential anymore.

something that upsets her, alot.

2009-03-26T14:14:00.003+08:00

she cried, till both of her eyelid swell.

been so long since she cried so hard, till her eyelid felt so heavy.

pondering, whether the decision she made was right.

because of that one tiny dream of hers, she sacrificed several others.

but tts not all, because people dont understand that kind of struggle she went through, and even blamed her for that.

need you be that harsh?

do you really think she's that retarded?

it sucks when you regret over your choice.

but this time round,

really,

it seemed like a big mistake.

i love bytches.

2009-03-26T00:35:00.006+08:00

♥ bytches's 2nd anniversary (:

date: 22nd March 2oo9

time: 11++am

venue: the usual

strength: 7

weather: fabulous

mood: AWESOME!

went to our usual hangout that we've not been there for ages, and the best thing is that everyone was present. =D

everything was damn awesome! my ladies were all draped in heels! OMG! hahaha! sparkles were around every of them man, made me feel underdressed! hahaha!

that's [sequence], our all-time favourite!

wonder why we wont get bored of this game LOL. several times the owner tried to persuade us into playing other games, but guess it didnt sink in. hah!

one major discovery this time round is [Truth or Fib].

i wont go into details about the game as most of the bytches's blogs gave a detailed explanation about the game, and about Claudia LOL.

can tell that im quite reluctant to blog? LOL.

pictures time! =D

spot our dress code!

close up! there's a reason for this arrangement and this background. (:

interested in anyone can pm me LOL. but no.2, 3 and 5 are attached! awwwwww. HAHA!

anyway, yaoyao had this craving for neoprints. so we went down to bugis. (:

wa lao, feel so old.

been ages since everyone last stepped into a neoprint shop lo LOL.

the thing about neoprints is that the procedures make you damn flustered.

like "AHHHHH FASTER FASTER!"

"ZOMG HOW"

"TAKE ALREADY UH?!"

-.-

the biggest picture from the neoprints? -.-

the below drawings are done by michie.

spot me! =D

i'll reveal if there are guesses. =D

okay, ends here. cause im really very lazy to blog LOL.

and i got alot of overdue pics and posts!

and chalet is later! =O

and ZOMG EVERYTHING DAMN PACKED!!!!!!!!!!!

abit side-track but NIGEL rock! LOL.

p/s: please open your eyes and SEE.

bytches are spelled as b-Y-t-c-h-e-s, not b-I-t-c-h-e-s.

if your eyes suck till that extent of having problems differentitating between "Y" and "I" (awwww, poor thing), please go consult a eye specialist for a throughout checkup. (:

p/p/s: WHERE CAN I GET KINDER SURPRISE!?

(not kinder joy)

to ng qing xiang.

2009-03-25T00:55:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NG QING XIANG!

18+1 years old already.

be mature kay, stop being so childish LOL. =x

honestly, thanks for being so awesome! =D

hope you and *cough* can be tgt soon okay? LOL.

"doors closing. beeeeeeeep beeeeeeep beeeeeeeeep beeeeeeeep beeeeeeep beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep"

that cycle.

2009-03-24T00:03:00.005+08:00

strained by this feeling again.

wondering why is it like an endless cycle that keeps on going round and round.

can somebody stop this?

p/s:

why i love friendster horo so much?

it express my emotions in words while giving me advices.

"Learning how to accept things that you can't change is crucial for you right now."

i need my bffs, now.

pre-war

2009-03-11T23:33:00.004+08:00

going to be busy,

and shag,

and moodless,

and sickly,

and all the bad things.

leading to bad complexion =O

irregular meals =O

very bad sorethroat =O

and all that.

=OOO

a pic before i look damn damn damn damn damn shag.

credits to mal (:

thanks, though its not anything magnificent(and look abit ghostly LOL), it made my day.

p/s: happy belated birthday eileen (10) and eugenia (8).

xoxo.

i like my blog song.

2009-03-09T03:10:00.003+08:00

seriously, bff ought to be diagnosed with insomnia. LOL.

weird that normally people only reminisce after times had long fade away, and not cherish it at that sole moment.

a really special feeling though, when you talk about those times.

(:

p/s: i cant believe i started playing mafia wars. -.-

im suspecting you casted a spell.

happy birthday dearest bestie (:

2009-03-08T00:31:00.007+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BESTIE!! ❤

i LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE ❤ YOU LUH!

please enjoy your birthday on this special date LOL.

dont just date and date and forget about me kay. haha.

always when we date each other out, one of us will be busy. -.-

meet up soon soon soon kay! ❤

xoxo.

p/s: LUO ZHI XIANG IS sizzling HOTTTTT. "i love sing-ga-pour!" LOLLL. ❤

different. (:

2009-03-06T22:33:00.002+08:00

something new.

something that bombarded alot of my time -.-

my blog look pretty messed up now, the colours of the fonts of previous posts clashed with this skin. -.-

doubt ill have the mood to change everything over though. LOL.

anticipating for things, worried at the same time.

craving for fhmt. (:

oh, michael jackson is making a comeback.

pool day.

2009-03-05T01:28:00.001+08:00

everyone is complicated in their own ways.

tell me, what is it that matters now?

metamorphose.

p/s: i seriously need a job.

):

2009-02-27T00:42:00.002+08:00

she's feeling horrible.

damn frail.

that same old feeling when the trust she implemented on people backfired.

blame it on her stupidity.

or pray hard that moodswing is the mastermind behind everything that surfaced out of no where.

25thFeb'o9 - evening.

2009-02-26T00:57:00.011+08:00

the appearance of rainbow, just when i felt grouchy and was walking around my house.

probably also after people complain about how the rain had interrupted their well-planned schedule for the day.

ever since i was a lil girl, the impression about rainbow that inked in me was the seven colours it consist.

whenever there was this optimal chance that a rainbow appears, ill stare at it with focus and count the "streaks" of colours.

though i dont really see seven colours most of the time. haha!

but today! lucky day i must say.

im not that kind of person who will walk around and look outside my windows when im at home.

most of the time ill just sit in front of my lap for hours.

hence, a big hug to those who informed me! haha.

anyway, i tabulated some of the pictures that people took!

ahma's

pei's

teck's

weihao's

mich's

mine (:

weird isnt it, that it doesnt matter where you are at that moment.

different shots from different people at different places. but still, beautifully taken. (:

my favourite picture of all.

nice shot ahma! =D

its not everything yet.
i had problems uploading a few.
(:

which is your fav?

they say sunshine after the rain.
i'll say rainbow after the rain.
(:

25th Feb 'o9 - the anticipated start.

2009-02-25T02:30:00.003+08:00

the smell of freedom.

the smell of holidays.

no more projects
no more presentations
no more exams
no more lectures
no more tutorials
no more labs
no more tormenting journey to school everyday
no more sleep deprived periods atm
no more annoying periods atm
no more school food atm

ETC ETC ETC!!

AWESOME.

right after fnet:
town, hk cafe, pink panther 2, pizza delivery, mahjong.

talk about heaven.

still anticipating for alot more.

i so wanna watch PUSH!
kinda tempted by 'he's just not that into you' too.

the best thing is,

this

is

just

the

start.

spell stupid.

2009-02-19T14:11:00.004+08:00

i foolishly scalded my poor wrist!

by accident luh, of course.

conclusion: im not dumb, i must be more than that. -.-

hopefully there wont be any more prints on myself -.-

anw, that stirred my curiously.

what would you do if you got scalded?

Rinse it under tap/cold water.
Apply toothpaste on it.
Apply...Soy sauce? -.-

vday' o9

2009-02-14T02:20:00.000+08:00

happy vday to all couples.

esp ppl like bro, bestie, eileen, eleanor, ahmei, my anata, my bytches who are attached, colleagues, all those i know of.

may all be everlasting (:

happy vday to all singles.

esp bffs, and all the singles i know of, and myself! =D

enjoy singlehood while it lasts (:

happy friendship day to all my loved ones.

i love you all (:

serious migraine, or should i say headache.
feels like hangover.

i need panadol or smth, seriously.

fancy dating books. yuck.
what a vday.
definitely the best one.

unhappy.

2009-02-13T00:32:00.005+08:00

exams are gruesome.

exam period=grouchy period.

))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))):

hence, just go away and stop irritating me.

dont talk to me if you cant cheer me up or make me smile.

dont add on to my burdens.

dont tell me how happy you are now.

just.

leave me alone.

o6feb, tour day.

2009-02-11T00:42:00.000+08:00

6feb'o9.

that night.

as usual.

awesome people.

i love them (:

knowledge gained! LOLLLLL

2009-02-10T22:38:00.002+08:00

today i attained new terms!

"Many suns"

"Open comp"

&

"Open aircon"

its a worthy trip to school! LOLLLLLLL.

CNY; day 15

2009-02-09T02:30:00.000+08:00

CNY;
eat, go out, mahjong, daidee, blackjack, chill, drink, rot, midnight movie, k, ton.

and it circulates again. -.-

DAMN UNHEALTHY LUH CNY.

turned my bodyclock back again. grrrr.

and i cant even upload pictures this few days.

oh man.

no more cny=no more frequent mahjongs. ):

btw, get well soon ahblurrrrrrrrrr. (:

for my bff ❤

2009-02-08T00:00:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BFF!!!!! ❤❤

though i dont know whats bothering you,

cheer up!

dont be bothered with those matters already okay? (:

no matter what, ill be there.

jiayou for coming exams!! ((: ❤

cakeeeeee (:

2009-02-04T23:11:00.013+08:00

fought the lazy bug!

did the thing i wanted to do last week!

TADA!!! (:

if you can decipher what im trying to express from the cake, you can claim something from me. LOL.

i know i know.

looks kiddish & fugly right. LOL.

but its my hardwork kay!

fortunate bro. my first attempt hokay. not like you want then have de hor. LOLLL.

its not that easy to draw a nice heartshape hor.

but basically i think the sides look nicer than the top. LOL.

esp the flowers and the heart. HEH.

furthermore its my first attempt on these lo.

come, applause.

LOL.

passerbys' stares, comments, queries are tormenting.

my fault for letting it be a last minute thing. -.- LOL.

finally!! HAHAHA.

and i got the cheek to take photo.

some weird passerby was like STARING at the screen of my phone during the time this picture was taken. -.-

happy belated bdae bro! =D

loves (:

101's post.

2009-02-01T22:46:00.003+08:00

uber ):

i wonder why i cant bear to spend on certain things but ended up spending alot more on unexpected stuffs.

its something that no matter how much you try, its to no avail.

hope everything goes well next week.

sincerely hoping.

cny 'o9 (:

2009-01-26T05:17:00.001+08:00

happy CNY to all!!!

finally home!

fun dayyyyyyy =D

tmr would be everything-new day!

now, leave me your address.

LOL.

enter password.

2009-01-21T22:16:00.003+08:00

its sinking.

HELP.

i hate it when there are so many things i wanted to express, and i simply couldnt.

bottled up.
bottled up.
bottiled up.

enter password to my world.

its weighing on me,
again.
and the same feeling returned.

rants.

2009-01-20T20:14:00.002+08:00

i was wondering..

what if.
what if.
what if.

WHAT IFS

what if i took the other path?
what if i didnt manage to grad within three years?
what if i get an F for tmr's c#?

no one will be there for me anymore.
no one will wait for me at je anymore.
no one will have meals with me in school anymore.

no one will be babbling over luozhixiang with me anymore.
no one will lend me mirror anymore.
no one will accompany me anymore.

no one will sit around me in classes anymore.
no one will travel to and fro school with me anymore.
no class outing for me.

no class chalet for me.
birthdays will be spent alone.
rants will be to myself, and the walls around.

ill be walking around school alone.
attending lessons alone.
sitting alone.

=OOOOOOOOOOO

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOooooooooooooOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
ZOMG.

the thought of it sent a chill down my spine.
how saddening.

thats the consequences for not being attentive in class all this while, this whole sem.
you reap what you sow, its always this way, isnt it.

life is only unfair, or more than unfair.
since when its fair?
hilarious.

alright, i admit.
im feeling a slight tinge of regret,
so what now?

is it still in time?
i hope.

羅志祥 ❤

2009-01-17T20:59:00.004+08:00

OMG IM SO ZOMG-LY PROUD OF HIM!!

specially enlarge it. put big big for you all to see. HAHAHAHAHA.

i think he's a good role model for everyone.

though he's like at the brim of his fame and everything now, he didnt forget those who gave him a push along the way.

LOVE HIM LUH❤

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WOOHOO!!! ❤

加油加油！！！

back to reality,

when

going

have

holidays

CNY CNY CNY ❤

mooMOOyear!

2009-01-01T05:13:00.001+08:00

random thing i did that time dont know using which website.

anyway, happy mooMOOyear! (:

hope this year will be smooth-sailing!

hope all the bad things will go with 'o8.

i want a happy 'o9.

i want everyone to be happy & healthy!

i wanna have lotsa money!

i wanna have alot of clothes!

i wanna meet my besties, bffs and all the loves!

i wanna meet luozhixiang!!

first new year resolution:

get my damn phone fixed.

MY ULTIMATE ❤

2008-12-29T16:32:00.003+08:00

WOOO.

❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

die die force you all to listen to his album, HAHA.

listen to all his songs hokay!! nice one nice oneeeeeeeeee (:

those that i uploaded is those that are my current favs. ❤

support him hokay!

buy his album, dont dl. LOL =x

❤ awwwwwwwww!!

see! even my toe is happy after listening to his songs! HAHA.

❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

to mr.chaota.rey.

2008-12-29T00:00:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR CHAOTA REYYYYYYYYYYY! (:

a picture of you and your friends, LOL.

older le hor, have more integrity and stop stealing people's bangles hokay? LOL. (:

mr.chaota rey the good guy,
you're older again! LOL.
isnt that one of your greatest fear? HAHA.
wish you all the best kay,
may all your wishes come true.
find the one for you soon!

MAKE A WISH, NOW!

ill be helping you to pray for it to come true kay! (:

xmas 'o8

2008-12-25T03:20:00.003+08:00

merry christmas 'o8 to all! (:
esp Eleanor who had been waiting for this day since like dont know when. haha!

the year is ending soon,
and i have so much to say bout this year.

thanks for all that made my day;
greetings, cards, presents, cookies, everything.

update again later, when christmas is over. (:

anw, happy belated birthday to jin, vin, mehmeh, kengsiang, and others if i left you out.

p/s: i dont know what is wrong with my phone but i just cant reply messages anymore.
sorry for those whose greeting or messages that wasnt replied.
i took the sim card out like 10 times and it still doesnt work -.-

p/p/s: i love my bffs, besties, and all (:

whines.

2008-12-17T22:27:00.002+08:00

should i be happy?
for all my besties to be so busy engaging in their own programmes of their own interest?

should i be unhappy?
that this whole year whenever there are big celebrations, events, or days that i wish they are there, but was taught that wishes dont come true?

no, i shouldnt be unhappy.
i cant afford to be unhappy.

at least now i dont wish anymore,
wishes never come true.

at least now i dont hope anymore,
for the amount of hopes you pinned, the same amount of disappointment you receive.

at least now i dont cry anymore,
yes, i do whine.
i still feel the same kind of upset,
the same kind of disappointment,
the same kind of abandoned feeling.
but its alright.
im trying to adapt, trying hard.
glad that im not immune though;
for i still am able to express my thoughts, my emotions.

at least now i dont blame anymore,
i realised it just doesnt matter,
what have i to blame? (:

at least i still have them by my side,
probably i expected too much from them,
all along i have high expectations on the people i care for, or are dear to me.
unknowningly imposing stress on them.

i have to learn to be independent,
or to be immune.

im glad that it seems like no one read my blog anymore.
because these thoughts are shameful,
made me feel so useless.

then, why post?
because im going crazy.
its too overwhelming.